So, it took me a while to become comfortable with talking about how my son, Ryan died. It was so hard to say the words. “He died of an overdose”…then you get “that look.” You know the look I mean. I already feel guilty enough to choke an elephant! At times it is overwhelming. Eventually, you have to get off the guilt train. Learn to forgive yourself! If you are on this site, then you probably can relate.